Am I 30 yet?

Human, Alive, Insightful, and Flawed

Sticks and stones may break my bones, but names will not hurt me. It seems that as each day passed by I become more and more human.  I am reminded that life is just a constant roller coaster.  And sometimes I wake up and just wish to be out of my 20s. 

Our 20s are a time to live, experience, enjoy the sun, moon, and stars, find love, break up, find another, blast music so loud you can’t hear anymore, dance like no one is watching, watch the sunset, read, travel, explore, educate ourselves, run the distance, make mistakes, and learn from each and everyone.

It is quite the beautiful disaster of our life.  One wonders how much we can learn and experience until you just burst with ideas, theories, beliefs, interests, passions, and dreams.  Sometimes I feel so excited, curious, and stimulated like a child.  Is it possible to experience too much or to know too much?

Can I wake up tomorrow and just be 30? Growing up I always hung out with the older crowd. My first boyfriend was 8 years older and those that followed were pretty much always 8-15 years older.  My mind functions in a different way because of all the experience. Our experience builds our intellectual knowledge and makes us learn. While I have a lot to learn still, a lot of responsibility, persistence, and organization to gain back after traveling and getting a bit lost.  It will eventually work itself with my higher power on my side.  My 20s will hopefully be a time where I look back and think, “Wow, that was bittersweet, but I am thankful to be 35.”