Grey's Anatomy

Recently I watched a few episodes of Grey’s Anatoy for my first time and I really like it. 

The season finale the doctors get into a plane crash.  On the previous episode, Lexi tells Mark that she loves him.  Every time she sees him she wants to say, but the words just don’t come out.  At the end of the episode, it all comes out at one time in such a real way(Yes I am aware this is a scripted show). She says she thinks about him all the time even when she does not want to think about him.  She eats, sleeps, and breathes him.  She misses him every day.  Yes, we get the point.

The part I like most about what she said was when she said,” I feel so much better a huge weight has just been lifted.” When you do tell someone how you feel, it does feel like a huge weight has been lifted from your heart.  But this usually applies to real human beings who want to truly express themselves rather than just repress, forget, or discard what they truly felt. 

Of course, he just says, “Thank you” and looks at her like she is "crazy" when she is saying all of it.  But when she is lying underneath the plane, bleeding to death with her lungs collapsing, her pelvis and legs crushed, Mark is then ready to say, “I love you Lexi.”

That is wrong on so many levels-really.  Men are so pathetic- gets some balls and tell a woman that you love her.  The world is not going to end if you do it.  Man up and say how you feel.  It is so unfortunate to wait to tell someone you love them when something happens to them or when you realize they are gone. 

That is why with Mr. Casa, I went over to his house and told him how I felt. Yes, he broke up with me, but I am responsible in many ways.  This is me playing stupid, but it is fact.  I constantly sent him mixed signals and would not label our relationship.  When I went over there, I was prepared for rejection, but I guess I did hold onto some hope that there would be a movie moment where he would run down the stairs and kiss me- NOT. haaaa It did not matter what he would say, how he would react, or if he would reject my feelings. I had to be a human being and get the weight lifted off my heart. If something happens to me or something happens to him, I spoke my peace and said how I feel. And that is a REAL human being because life can end at an instant and each moment is precious. 

                                                           Carpe Diem!!!